Here I go again on my own

February 5, 2008

It’s frustrating when you know where you want to go, but the entire world seems like one big roadblock. And that is where I am currently. This blog is supposed to be forming some cohesion and direction, but it’s all pointing to me whining about not having the job and career that I want. Get in line, right? But I’m not saying I want to be a porn star or Eli Manning…I want a job in the video game industry. I want to talk to someone who is hiring and ask, “What do I need to do to make myself someone you want to hire?” I am more than willing to put in the hard work to acquire the necessary skills, but I need some sort of compass to tell me which way to steer the ship. Right now, I am grape-shotting by going after a little modeling, a little programming, a lot of concepts and a little art. I know I need to focus my talents, but everything I read says they’re looking for someone who has some knowledge in every aspect.

Beat down. That’s how to describe the current mood. And I really don’t want this to become a journal. Though I’d love to make this a private entry, I am posting it public. Hopefully someone reads this and can offer some incredible insight on how to get out of my current slump, aim in one direction and achieve. I can only assume this insight would come from someone who has been in this same position…after all, isn’t that the definition?

After reading this article about blogging, I have decided to give my blog a direction, a purpose, a very reason for being. I was all ready to sit here and tell you, the reader, on what journey you will be accompanying me, when I actually pulled up my blog, looked at the infamous cursor blinking at me and thought, “Crap. I got nuthin’.”

Deciding not to give up so easily, I began looking around at other blogs – Top Blogs, in fact – to see what direction others have chosen. After all, If I have seen further, it is by standing on the shoulders of giants. I had one interest in mind: this pesky bit about wanting to break into the as-of-yet, impenetrable fortress of the video game industry. Scrolling down the list of Top Blogs, I find this gem. More precisely, this. I actually got pulled into reading 31 different people talking about why or how a Star Trek MMO can/cannot be made.

I trolled through a few more of the entries with the slightest upturn in the corners of my mouth, amazed (yet again) at the insanity of some of the things on the Internet. I then looked at the clock and saw that almost an hour had passed and I was nowhere close to having a purpose, a goal, or even a whiff of direction for my blog.

For those that need direction, I have failed you yet again. But fear not! I am on the trail of purpose like a bloodhound on the trail of something bloody. For those that are interested in seeing where this thing can lead, please, read on. Oh! And feel free to write some encouraging/directional comments that could assist.

 Till next time.